I am Awaken

July 1996

I am awaken, not as in awake from sleep. I' m awaken from my dream as a child. From fantasy to reality.

My parents call me, told me to sit in front of them and  tell me how life is. That our family is not like others. How we are poor compared to others. How they will not be able to fulfill my needs like other parents. How I must start working too to make our family able to go through red.

I'm confused at first but then accept it. I will work. I am a good child after all, and a first born.

My mother introduce me to some one who work as Janitor in my Junior Middle School. After school over, which is around 5 PM, I will help the Janitor cleaning classroom and school grounds. He will pay me Rp 1000,- everyday, and sometimes give me leftover food.

I bring a ragged pair of T-Shirt and pant for work in my school bag.

Each day pass till I graduated from my Junior High School.

That's is when the current me is born. That's when I burying my self inside.

RIP me.